Positive Vibes

9/29/15 was the first day it actually felt like fall. It was cold, wet and rainy. By the end of the day, the sunset was even that perfect fall color. I love this type of weather for the most part. This is probably my favorite time of year. Of course, it’s pretty much every girl who is in her 20s favorite time as well. There is just something that is different about fall. The air gets quiet, the leaves start changing and the bugs are slowly disappearing (Thank goodness!) I do love fall, not for the pumpkin spice lattes but for the holidays that approach.

I’ve been working retail for about 8 years now. As much as I groan about the customers that come in with their outragous requests. I still enjoy the season. I love looking at all the holidays decorations. I love the togetherness of family that this time of year brings. Even though the temperature is dropping and I won’t be able to wear sandals anymore, I’m okay with that. It brings out an excitement within me that no other time of the year brings out.

Today had some good positive vibes. Which is good. I haven’t had many good vibe days in awhile. Thanks for reading. <3

Long time no see!

Woah! It’s been awhile since I’ve last blogged (is that a word?). Anyway, things have changed since then and I decided to get back to my roots.

There was a break in at my house that I was fixing up. Since then I’ve moved out and currently reside in an apartment in Chicago. I’ve always dreamed about living in Chicago. The city lights illuminate your surroundings. Taking the CTA everywhere. Enjoying all the different culture and food. After six months of it though, I can’t stand it anymore. The cars are too loud, the lights are blinding, and you can’t see any stars.

It got me thinking though about dreams and expectations. We sometimes have huge expectations about future events. There is nothing wrong with having expectations but they can’t be to big.  You almost want a sense of control when your expectations are high. I thought that I could control my surroundings and environment when I moved to the city. I thought people would just move out of my way so I could have the experience that I dreamt about. Chicago doesn’t work that way. Millons of other people live in this evolving city. Millons that have accepted what Chicago really is and love it for who she is.

Chicago for me, will always have a place in my heart but it isn’t the home that I want for myself.

Thanks for reading and as always Stay Beautiful! xoxo

[Book Review] Charade by Nyrae Dawn (May contain spoilers!)

did not get this book for free by all means and I am not getting any type of reimbursement. I paid for it on my own through my kindle. 

     I brought this book on my kindle about a year and a half ago because a friend of mine suggested it to me. It took me that long with read it too. It isn’t by all means a long book. I just ended up losing interest and putting it down for awhile. When I picked it back up, I reread a couple chapters then remembered everything. I don’t mean to spoil anything by all means…but I will say this SPOILERS.

     The two main characters are Colt and Chey are both going to the same college. Chey is the prefect looking girl on the outside, but on the outside she has an emotional storm brewing inside her. Colt is the badass bad boy with a soft side. Who doesn’t love a bad boy with a soft side? I know I do! What I love about the book is it switching back and forth between the viewpoints of the main characters. That aspect of the book always did intrigue me because it lets you in the mind of both characters. How they deal with the emotional issues within themselves. There story ends up intertwined when Chey wants to make Gregory jealous. So they put on a relationship Charade. My inner girl said “Run girl while you can! Your going to fall hard for this guy.” This book is really good at taking your human emotions, chews them and spits them out. This is a young adult book from start to finish. The college angst, the depression, anxiety. Though it did have some adult themes such as losing a parent.

     I know I knocked it earlier but the love story aspect though is amazing. I am an extremely emotional person so I cried about three or four times while reading it. If you enjoy reading about two people who have a issues and lean on each other to get through the hell called life, than this book is for you!

Thanks for reading! I plan on posting more book reviews as I finish books. Comment below if you have any suggestions on books! Or tell me you love/hated this post. 


So my emotions are getting the best of me but this is my way of letting things go.

The anger I feel because you don’t call

Aches within my soul

You say I get attached to easily

And that you change people frequently

I don’t like change

It isn’t my style

So what if I hold onto things

For just a little while

Don’t worry though

You’ve shown your true colors

You never did care for me

It was all a show, manipulation really

It took some time for me to open up my eyes

To see the real you

Just this one time