[Book Review] Charade by Nyrae Dawn (May contain spoilers!)

did not get this book for free by all means and I am not getting any type of reimbursement. I paid for it on my own through my kindle. 

     I brought this book on my kindle about a year and a half ago because a friend of mine suggested it to me. It took me that long with read it too. It isn’t by all means a long book. I just ended up losing interest and putting it down for awhile. When I picked it back up, I reread a couple chapters then remembered everything. I don’t mean to spoil anything by all means…but I will say this SPOILERS.

     The two main characters are Colt and Chey are both going to the same college. Chey is the prefect looking girl on the outside, but on the outside she has an emotional storm brewing inside her. Colt is the badass bad boy with a soft side. Who doesn’t love a bad boy with a soft side? I know I do! What I love about the book is it switching back and forth between the viewpoints of the main characters. That aspect of the book always did intrigue me because it lets you in the mind of both characters. How they deal with the emotional issues within themselves. There story ends up intertwined when Chey wants to make Gregory jealous. So they put on a relationship Charade. My inner girl said “Run girl while you can! Your going to fall hard for this guy.” This book is really good at taking your human emotions, chews them and spits them out. This is a young adult book from start to finish. The college angst, the depression, anxiety. Though it did have some adult themes such as losing a parent.

     I know I knocked it earlier but the love story aspect though is amazing. I am an extremely emotional person so I cried about three or four times while reading it. If you enjoy reading about two people who have a issues and lean on each other to get through the hell called life, than this book is for you!

Thanks for reading! I plan on posting more book reviews as I finish books. Comment below if you have any suggestions on books! Or tell me you love/hated this post. 


So my emotions are getting the best of me but this is my way of letting things go.

The anger I feel because you don’t call

Aches within my soul

You say I get attached to easily

And that you change people frequently

I don’t like change

It isn’t my style

So what if I hold onto things

For just a little while

Don’t worry though

You’ve shown your true colors

You never did care for me

It was all a show, manipulation really

It took some time for me to open up my eyes

To see the real you

Just this one time

Religion and how it doesn’t work for me.

Woah…it’s been awhile since I blogged about any topic. It’s funny when life throws a bunch of crap at you, how long it takes to cycle through it all. Now this post of a bit of a rant and my realization of things within the last few months. If your easily offended stop right now. This isn’t for the faint of hearts.

Spiritually speaking, ( since this is my spiritual blog) I’m have cycled through many religions. From catholic to paganism. Right now though I’m not feeling any form of organized religion. Reason being, I’m sick of the extremists. I hate the rules that people have put in place to follow said religions. I also hate forcing myself to be a religion because my family is. Hear me out…

I have seen the extremists from Christianity and even paganism. ( yes there are extremists in paganism) Even atheists have some as well. I even tried to be one of those extremists. Read a ton of books. Burn this herb at this time to get this effect they said. Did any of it work for me? Not at all.

I found the books uninteresting. Honestly there is only so much you can write about Isis before you become redundant in what your saying. And most of the new age mumbo jumbo that’s out there is peoples opinions and not actually based on anything.

Once again burn this candle at this time on this day while the moon is pointing in this direction. I’m trying to get closer to some sort of deity not solve the world hunger. ( I can get a tad over the top sometimes)

Point being after the five years I have tried to be pagan and fail miserably, I’m moving forward. I do believe there is a higher power. Does he control whether or not I am happy? Or when a certain event should happen in my life. Probably not. That’s why you have to take the initial step to find happiness in your life.

Don’t read books because someone told you to. Read them because you honestly find them interesting.

Don’t follow a religion just because your family does. I’m a prime example. I stopped following a religion because I didn’t like the way it made me feel at this end of the day. I shouldn’t feel guilty for the decisions I make. Because in the end it is what I wanted at that exact moment in time. There is nothing wrong with that.

I’m sure there are a ton of people out there that organized religion works for them. I guess I’m part of the group that it doesn’t. Go ahead and pray that one day I may find Jesus. (I have actually met like twenty of them…lol)
I’ll take your blessing and thank you for the kind words. But Jesus isn’t going to save me when I’m falling off a building or even when I get my heart broken. I have to help myself in those situations.

PBP: A is for Amber Week 2

Hello friends! I started up the Pagan Blog Project again. Lets hope I follow through with a weekly post now. 

This week I decided to do Amber. Reason being is that I have actually started doing research in Norse Traditions. When I was reading about Freya crying tears of Amber while searching for her husband, I figured this would be a perfect post for week 2! I don’t own much amber actually, which is surprising. I ended up adding it to my collection this week while I was at the Spiritual store.

Amber is interesting enough is not a crystal or a gem. It comes from the extinct evergreen tree in a fossilized resin form. This process takes about twenty to fifty millions years to harden. Since Amber is a form of a resin it is a very soft material and lightweight. Some samples of Amber have actually been found with bugs in them, allowing scientists to study them further in detail. Amber is found in mostly yellow and deep golden shades. You may find red, green, or brown samples though. In ancient Greek times, it was considered to be the juice essence of the setting sun and charged with solar energy. Amber was sacred to the god Helios, who is said to drive the sun across the sky in his chariot. In Celtic society, it was a sign of wealth and status. Most of the time it was set in silver or gold in fine brooches. 

Using Amber for healing purposes, the color is a warm and cheering to the spirits. It brings a sense of renewal and recharge to energy levels. Amber can also be used to restore the stomach, kidneys and spleen. It also supports the immune system. It can strengthen the lower back, pelvis and reproductive organs. Amber can also help regenerate energy in the solar plexus and sacral chakra centers, helping to stabilize and ground emotions. It stimulates a positive attitude and improves self-confidence. In healing layouts, place amber pieces over the throat, the solar plexus, the naval and on each side of the pelvis to regenerate and strengthen the body. If you need to balance your emotions, wear amber as any piece of jewelry.